Loneliness

I been through this in my life plenty. Right through Primary school, Intermediate, Even High School to some extent. But still I'm either paranoid or lonely. Paranoid that people don't actually care what I'm up to, or lonely 'cause it's true.

Well all the people that truly know me and know what I've been through in my short life will put it straight down to Paranoia, BUT in saying that the people who "Truly" know me are the ones who don't invite me along when the group goes places.

Put it this way: I feel that none of my friends would really care if I wasn't here, NOT SAYING IM SUICIDAL AT ALL, but this is how I feel. And this is where another side of my theory comes in. Depression.

Now I dunno what it is, I just can't seem to get motivated at all. Used to LOVE driving and rugby, used to love hanging out, used to find the world a beautiful place, but so much has brought me into what I'd call a state of depression. No shit, I kid you not when I say this weather gets me down. It's either icy cold or raining, it drys out my skin making it sore to move and shit. There's a constant grey shadow over this shitty fucken town, and the people who walk these streets are either hood rats who hate white guys or snooty fagz who raise themselves to a higher level. Let other people put you on a pedestal man, don't show yourself off.

Sick of the beef, sick of racism, sick of oil spills, sick of nuclear arms, sick of war in the middle east, sick of the 2012 prophecy/theory which I believe to be all shit, sick of feeling like I'm still stuck on the same track 24/7, sick of not being motivated enough to make a vid or track, sick of bowing down to authority when it's blatantly unfair and prejudiced, POLICE not allowing you to wait for a ride outside McDonalds at 1AM in the morning and forcing you to walk down a dark fucken street because they dont want us there. What dumb cunts.

Chow. (Or Ci`ao or however it goes. I'll just spell it like it sounds.)

Problems

This is not an official post. This is just a boredom post.
New post today sometime though... Hopefully... And a new video within the coming days people.

Yo wazzup!
Yeah churr. Keen. Hard? Yeh =]
Wish I could grow a goatie =[

Oi straight up I wrote the first 2 lines to a song tonight, twas an event of such.
Ryank Karaka feat. Kassah - Magic.
Keen.

Hellah jealous of the skinny peepz out there. I'm running tomorrow. Don't know where how or why but I will... At some stage.

Sick. Got another sinus infection =/ dumb!

And so I wanna get me an iPod touch this week hopefully :P HOPEFULLY. I might get a better pay now because I worked at this holiday programme. Chur ae?

Yeah anyways, I got some ideas of such to post up on here soon. But ttfn :P byeeeeee.

~Kassah

The Un-Used [Episode 1]

The BBall Project

My Team.

If you DONT want your face in this vid get in touch with me on FB..

Hey peepz! Yell at me if you don't want your face to be in this new vid I'm doing. It's a collab of all 3 years of the clips on my camera in to
one big vid. I have clips of these people: Some of the Hora boys doing a
haka, Shay Tana, Troy Megson, Jesse Anderson, Nathan Cutforth, Jason
Hendricks, Nane Maru, Monnie (You know who you are), Nathan Teichardt,
Jordan Paratene, Shaun Hansen, Rahera Ikurere, Dilan Palmer, Dylan Pou,A-Tak (Josh Burgess, Nothing bad of you), Steven Cox, Josh Caldwell (Even if you say no this ones going up HAHA), Ryan Karaka, Jordan Newton, Zane, and DJ. Yes I do have vid of all of you.. Scared?

Naah but serious if you don't wanna be in this vid then tell me haha.
Churr.

Dear You.

1.) I'm sick of wondering what you're doing.
This is me being honest, not having a go at you.
We don't txt like we used to.
You don't even wanna call me, or want me to call you.
Don't seem to be interested in me coming and staying.
You're making me feel like I'm missing something, or I'm just deliberately missing something subconsciously?
Or am I just being paranoid? LOL

But seriously, I don't know what the fucks up. You say nothings wrong and that it's all the same.
Maybe that's the problem, it's all the same.

2.) Missed my exam today, fucked me off realllllll bad. However, they offered me a re-sit on Friday and I took it.

3.) Got 92% on the family history assignment I had talked about here for a while.

4.) Me and Rycaneus had a mean talk with a local "gig organizer" who gave us some great advice on how to get in the real music business. It was a great insight and I think we may follow through with what he told us to do. Watch this space..

5.) Been an absolute fiend on the 2nd gen. Pokemon games of late. Like Big time. (OMG and just as I wrote Big Time the song started playing on my itunes I have playing in the background as I write this! LOL) I basically clocked the games Gold, Silver, and Crystal in one day with hyperspeed :)

6.) Off to countdown to get a drink now. Mountain Dew is on. Haven't been out all day. I get really in-secure being home alone cause my mind ticks overtime and I begin to get claustrphobic on Earth. and my worst enemy Paranoia begins to visit in a strange way.

More on that later, peace =]