EXMAS

Yup.
That time of the year again.

Hung out with Jordy all yesterday, made a vid which will be below =]
Thats about it ae.
Have fun kidz.

Grips

I've come to terms with the fact that I am a difficult person to be around or get along with. And it's for that very reason that I cherish every friendship I have. Regardless of if I see you every day or once a year, you still know who you are. You are my friend no matter how much you change, no matter what paths you take, I will be here for you. This is my weakness..

People tend to take my friendship for granted. They tend to get to know how I operate and then expect the same every time. Being a friend to some people feels like I need to get experienced with marketing myself sometimes. It shouldn't be this way. I feel that a friendship with someone is not something you expect to get something out of, but more something you wish to achieve with that person. It's hard to explain but I hope that made sense.

My views on life are often very, umm, "strict", if you will. I have my own very strong sense of right and wrong, and yes, just like every other human being on this small planet we call home, I make mistakes. Big ones, small ones, down to the merest typing error. But one thing that I do believe makes me stand out from the crowd is I technically have no false bravado or false image about myself. I do not associate wealth to do with clothing, cars, jewellery etc. I tend to associate wealth with a strong sense of family, friends (not in a popularity way if you know what I mean), and happiness. I know whole heartedly that nothing can buy happiness, no matter how many excuses you make, it can only be earnt I guess.

I made a mistake. I do not wish to disclose it. But I do wish for forgiveness. I am sorry.

To Be Seen, Not Heard...

So I'm pretty much fit ta go for this studio. Gonna be managing my network. WE already have 3 definites to record, and a sizeable list of others who are keen. Oh and if you're keen to record some high end demo's, give me a txt/call on 0211709165.

I think I've been working out a lil too much lately. Honest to god my arms and chest are sore as a guido with no hair gel.

Along the lines of Guido's I actually found Pauly D quite funny. Straight up. Random as hell.

That is all, Run along liuetenant.

Foward Movement Yeah!

Hey to all my bro's and Girls.
Big steps being taken towards the music and production side of my life. We went down to a new audio studio in town on Saturday and practically got offered jobs. Took my audio technician mate Steven in yesterday and he got offered the Chief Tech position. I got asked if I wanted to do the marketing and promotion side of things. MEANFUN

Will keep ya'll posted.

And no, there is no sadness in my life today =D

Full on burger flavour.

Yeah well I ain't been here in a while. So what? Who reads this shit anyways.
I found a new love for Ukulele, it helps me think. It's sooooooo therapeudic. (If thats how you spell it)

Single now. Probably for a long time. Weird. Feels weird. Like 11 months of my life meant nothing. NO. I'm not depressed. Shit. I have a mandarin sitting on my table that I've been meaning to eat for the last two days. Also got a blue vivd which has helped me to litter my walls with interesting signatures, letters, verses, hooks, choruses, Passages, uplifiting and depressing sayings/slogans. The camera sits right where I recorded the last 5-10 vlogs that are NOT funny. The photo camera has seen alot of use however. And has saved me some valuable memories. I start to appreciate time passed when I can sit and reminisce. an empty cup which i half spilled Lemonade on the wireless with =s Luckily didn't fuck the net up. Stacks of CD's, of which most are useless or fucked. Empty bottles of beer on the floor. Heaps of empty Mountain Dew bottles too. Clean clothes (For once).

I love mixing music. The fact that I can take someone elses creation and sort of make it my own inspires me to do... STUFF! :O

Yeah well.......... Bye.

Eahfarkyuuowskeeuzmeeyay?

If theres no better way to start a blog than with anger, hatred, sadness, or intolerance then I will safely say that this world is coming to an end.

Oops:

Is it weird to feel suspect about being in a relationship where your GF txts her ex all the time cause she hates him so much?
Give me an answer.

On a lighter note: End of year tour AB's selection could be very interesting and seems to be very exciting.
My theory on who may get a shot at the shirt, and a rating on their chances (Out of 10):

Kurt Baker (Naki) 6 [Taylor and this dude seem to combine real well. Be mean to see what he can do with the AB's]

Andre Taylor (Naki) 6 [Flair all over]

Jarred Payne (Nthland) 4-5 [Wildcard. Has been of ultimate form lately. Great link with Ranger in ITM Cup]

Robby Fruean (Cantab) 8

Sonny Bill Williams (Cantab) [Well DUH!] 1,000,000 [Put it this way, the selectors will get murdered by greater NZ if they don't. I still believe he's over-hyped and over-rated]

Julian Savea (WGTN) 7 [Young, Strong, near impossible to stop close to the line. Will be disappointed if he doesn't at least be a benchwarmer.]

Yeah well, hit me up with your comments. Who do you think?

Latez.

When you can't put gas in the tank.

Fuck I hate my mother.
She loves controversy.
Hate her voice.

Loneliness

I been through this in my life plenty. Right through Primary school, Intermediate, Even High School to some extent. But still I'm either paranoid or lonely. Paranoid that people don't actually care what I'm up to, or lonely 'cause it's true.

Well all the people that truly know me and know what I've been through in my short life will put it straight down to Paranoia, BUT in saying that the people who "Truly" know me are the ones who don't invite me along when the group goes places.

Put it this way: I feel that none of my friends would really care if I wasn't here, NOT SAYING IM SUICIDAL AT ALL, but this is how I feel. And this is where another side of my theory comes in. Depression.

Now I dunno what it is, I just can't seem to get motivated at all. Used to LOVE driving and rugby, used to love hanging out, used to find the world a beautiful place, but so much has brought me into what I'd call a state of depression. No shit, I kid you not when I say this weather gets me down. It's either icy cold or raining, it drys out my skin making it sore to move and shit. There's a constant grey shadow over this shitty fucken town, and the people who walk these streets are either hood rats who hate white guys or snooty fagz who raise themselves to a higher level. Let other people put you on a pedestal man, don't show yourself off.

Sick of the beef, sick of racism, sick of oil spills, sick of nuclear arms, sick of war in the middle east, sick of the 2012 prophecy/theory which I believe to be all shit, sick of feeling like I'm still stuck on the same track 24/7, sick of not being motivated enough to make a vid or track, sick of bowing down to authority when it's blatantly unfair and prejudiced, POLICE not allowing you to wait for a ride outside McDonalds at 1AM in the morning and forcing you to walk down a dark fucken street because they dont want us there. What dumb cunts.

Chow. (Or Ci`ao or however it goes. I'll just spell it like it sounds.)

Problems

This is not an official post. This is just a boredom post.
New post today sometime though... Hopefully... And a new video within the coming days people.

Yo wazzup!
Yeah churr. Keen. Hard? Yeh =]
Wish I could grow a goatie =[

Oi straight up I wrote the first 2 lines to a song tonight, twas an event of such.
Ryank Karaka feat. Kassah - Magic.
Keen.

Hellah jealous of the skinny peepz out there. I'm running tomorrow. Don't know where how or why but I will... At some stage.

Sick. Got another sinus infection =/ dumb!

And so I wanna get me an iPod touch this week hopefully :P HOPEFULLY. I might get a better pay now because I worked at this holiday programme. Chur ae?

Yeah anyways, I got some ideas of such to post up on here soon. But ttfn :P byeeeeee.

~Kassah

The Un-Used [Episode 1]

The BBall Project

My Team.

If you DONT want your face in this vid get in touch with me on FB..

Hey peepz! Yell at me if you don't want your face to be in this new vid I'm doing. It's a collab of all 3 years of the clips on my camera in to
one big vid. I have clips of these people: Some of the Hora boys doing a
haka, Shay Tana, Troy Megson, Jesse Anderson, Nathan Cutforth, Jason
Hendricks, Nane Maru, Monnie (You know who you are), Nathan Teichardt,
Jordan Paratene, Shaun Hansen, Rahera Ikurere, Dilan Palmer, Dylan Pou,A-Tak (Josh Burgess, Nothing bad of you), Steven Cox, Josh Caldwell (Even if you say no this ones going up HAHA), Ryan Karaka, Jordan Newton, Zane, and DJ. Yes I do have vid of all of you.. Scared?

Naah but serious if you don't wanna be in this vid then tell me haha.
Churr.

Dear You.

1.) I'm sick of wondering what you're doing.
This is me being honest, not having a go at you.
We don't txt like we used to.
You don't even wanna call me, or want me to call you.
Don't seem to be interested in me coming and staying.
You're making me feel like I'm missing something, or I'm just deliberately missing something subconsciously?
Or am I just being paranoid? LOL

But seriously, I don't know what the fucks up. You say nothings wrong and that it's all the same.
Maybe that's the problem, it's all the same.

2.) Missed my exam today, fucked me off realllllll bad. However, they offered me a re-sit on Friday and I took it.

3.) Got 92% on the family history assignment I had talked about here for a while.

4.) Me and Rycaneus had a mean talk with a local "gig organizer" who gave us some great advice on how to get in the real music business. It was a great insight and I think we may follow through with what he told us to do. Watch this space..

5.) Been an absolute fiend on the 2nd gen. Pokemon games of late. Like Big time. (OMG and just as I wrote Big Time the song started playing on my itunes I have playing in the background as I write this! LOL) I basically clocked the games Gold, Silver, and Crystal in one day with hyperspeed :)

6.) Off to countdown to get a drink now. Mountain Dew is on. Haven't been out all day. I get really in-secure being home alone cause my mind ticks overtime and I begin to get claustrphobic on Earth. and my worst enemy Paranoia begins to visit in a strange way.

More on that later, peace =]

Howwwwwwwwzeeeet?

Yo!
Long time no talk uh?
Yeah well.. I typed up a 3 hour assignment on my family history and I still gotta Powerpoint to do -.-
Anyways, how yous been?
Chur.
I had a few ideas pop in my head over the past few weeks.

Yes they are video ideas and I know my promises are always empty but I been wanting to do this one for some time.
It's to this song by Owl City called Meteor Shower (In vid below).
I want to do a short "cinematic" (I guess) based on the feeling of being alone. It's gonna be a bit out of character for me because I don't normally do serious shit, I'm more the funny guy to everyone so yeah...





Another one is this other idea which i could most likely actually get in touch with the guy about using his song.
While Tubing dubstep the other week I found this guy from Mount Eden DnB and he made a song called Beautiful Lies. It got my mind going about making a vid too:



I kinda created my new YouTube channel as a more "serious" channel, so if it ain't good enough for my standards then I don't put it up. I have made about 3 vids in the last few mades which have only found their way into my recycle bin.

In Other News:
I been following a Graffiti Legend on Twitter for quite some time and have been reading his blog for quite some time also. It's FUCKEN AMAZING. No shit peepz. It would pretty much cater to anybody artistically as well as in general. It's full of Artworks in the street, contemporary on canvas, small video documentaries about the Graffiti and street scenes and other stuff, Revoks own political views, pictures and videos from his travels etc, links to his clothing store and other items of interest, MUCH MUCH MORE. Definitely worth a check out people, and if you don't even click this link: http://revok1.com/ , then damn... You're missing out.

Latez people, I'm owtiez.

Seat no seatbelt.

Mean. Wheatpaste.

My walls are gradually getting covered in wallpaper-posters. Looking pretty mean.

The guy who replaced the seat in my car may have forgot to put the seatbelt back. in fact, yes he did forget to put the seatbelt back. Thank you M***** T**** ;).

Work can suck a dick at the mo. It's nothing personal, I just CBF working =/.

McDonalds had no eftpos all day. Soooooooooo Gaaaaaaaaaay.

Follow me ---->

MWAH! ;)

Don't drinka and fly!!

An out of it news report on our local paper today: New Zealand Wood Pigeon apparently get drunk as off guava berries and can't fly properly. 25 of these birds have been admitted to what you could call "Bird Rehab" at the local Bird Shelter and 10 so far have died. Least they died having mean fun uh?

Me, Shay and Jordy had mean fun in town on Monday haha! We practically played tag throughout the streets of the CBD. Jordy mysteriously disappeared later on so me and Shay walked home.

Been researching my family history and found out some interesting shit ae. Hate the fact I descended from England, makes me feel so generic..

Ryan's entering a competition with the Good Morning show and I hope he does well.
the dude has alot of talent and can go far so I really do hope he does.

Our game this week is against Moerewa. Name is kinda fear-filled but fuck it. We'll push them over just like we did to Southern last week. Hope me and the boys can pull off another good victory.

I'm officially addicted to Mountain Dew and I'm actually scared haha! Can't wait t see the Naruto-Pain fight when it comes out friday. My new speakers are mean too. I have a bad habit back of tying knots in my hair. Anyone who knows how to stop this contact me on my Facebook or Twitter cause I'm starting to get bald patches XD.

Love you Liddy! XoX =]

My life memories..

Well my life began in Auckland at 7:36 AM in the morning on the 25th of October 1991.
Nothing significant happened in the first years of my life. My family moved to a little town called Kaiwaka when I was around 6 months old. My mother was 18 when she had me.

I began my schooling at Kaiwaka Primary School in 1996. When I entered the school as a 5 year old I was told I was reading and comprehending as well as a 12 year old could. I put this down to learning to read at around four and my great interest in animals and stuff, reading articles about wolves, foxes, eagles, whales etc. My weak point was my mathematical skills.
From Kaiwaka I then moved to Wellsford Primary in either late '97 or early '98. I know that my Aunt Janine was working at that school at the time. I never really made any friends at these schools apart from the ones I met before school. I vaguely remember playing touch/ripper rugby at Kaiwaka domain on Saturdays and stuff. My mother had been dating my now step-father Wayne and they eventually decided to marry, which they did.

In 1999 my mother and step-father decided they would move to Whangarei due to a lack of work for Wayne in the district. We quickly settled in to the house which we are still in today on Fairburn street in Raumanga. I began school again at Morningside Primary. I also began playing for a soccer-team which Wayne began to coach at FC Whangarei. We were 8th Grade Red and the other team was 8th Grade Blue. They were a bunch of cheating bastards, and one of our games went something like 12 minutes overtime so they could beat us. I never really made many friends at Morningside either. I tagged along with a group but never really was acknowledged. I had one good mate though, Cody, though he moved to Oakleigh and started attending Tauraroa Area School in 2001 I think. I left Morningside Primary in 2002.

At the end of the year 2002 I fell out of a tree and broke both my arms (lol). Which menat I had to begin schooling about 2 months into term time in 2003. I began schooling at Tauraroa Area School and loved it at first. After a while though I began to become a target of bullying. In 2004 I was eventually "forced" to leave that school in a way. I then went to Auckland and stayed with my Aunt and Uncle and my cousins for a good month I believe. I returned home in November or December that year.

In 2005 I began Schooling at Whangarei Boys' High School. I met up with a guy I knew from my Morningside days and we became friends. Anthony Raimona was his name. Through him I met Nathan Cutforth, and Dylan Pou who I already knew from Morningside as well. I then tried my hand at rugby and found I had a passion for it.
I still play there to this day. I met a guy who I knew also from Morningside called Alex Gilbert. He was into music production at the time and was making hip-hop tracks which I was interested in trying out. We met a couple of guys who called themselves VanDam and Young Slanteyez who were amateur music producers out near Parua Bay. I then formed a crew called the Outbreak Empire which originally consisted of Me (Kassah), Anthony (SRX), Alex Gilbert, And Slanteyez. We made a few tracks and chopped and changed MC's but we were never really successful. But once again I came to be a target of bullying, mainly exclusion, and left the school in 2007. The bullying had taken its toll on me and I believe it changed me in a way.

In 2007 I began to chase my other passion for acting. I started at People Potential on their Introduction To Performing Arts course. I knew a guy called Stefan who I used to live next-door to. The Course was tutored by a knowledgeable man named William Davis who had extensive experience in the performing arts industry. I learnt alot about myself during this time. I also began to break the cycle of "paranoia" I guess you could call it, as a sort of pro-longed side effect of my years of bullying during school. One day a guy named Te Ao joined my course and I recognized him from hanging with one of my "enemies" at the time, a guy named Jason whos now a good mate of mine. So I told Jase that he was on course and we became good mates. I met some awesome people on the course and sort of found myself almost drifting away from my old friends. Through Jase I met Shay, his nephew, who I now consider as my best mate.

In 2009 I felt I had done all I could do at PP. I left to go onto Foundation Studies at Northtec. On the foundation studies course was a girl called Kelsie who goes out with Stefan. We became mates and had a few piss-ups and stuff with the likes of Jason and a few other people who were on PP etc. During this time we formed another crew and dropped OutBreak Empire and became Darkstylez Productions. Headed by a rapper called A-Tak. I finished the course and went back to PP for the last 6 months of 2009.

In mid 2009 I auditioned for a local feature film called "Still Small Voice". I got a part as a character called "Will" and met heaps of people. Clayton Petera became a good friend of mine and he is a very talented singer who could go far, and I hope he does. In late 2009 I became interested in the Northtec course for Sport and Outdoor Recreation. And 2009 finished as a really good year, probably my best ever.

In 2010 I had a falling out with A-Tak and dropped the rap career all together.
I began my sport and rec. course at Northtec in February and my main focuses in life are my Course, y beautiful girl Liddy, film making, and Rugby. I joined up with an old mate Ryan on the course and we are looking at putting a band together. I believe that all my past experiences have changed me for the better and made me a better person.

=]

Inspiration.

Now I've named this blog 'Inspiration' for many reasons.

One is that upon seeing my family history today I feel I have a need to break out of the "bad" teen-age cycle almost completely.
What I mean by this is I really want to stay away from partying, stay away from clubbing, stop procrastinating, stop the worrying about what other people are doing and focus on myself, my true friends, and my family.

My family tree is amazing, probably not to you but I never knew exactly where I came from, what my ancestors did, where my place is, and I realized how completely different my life is to what they struggled through in their day.

I traced it back to 1870, because thats as far as my Great-Uncle has accomplished so far.
I found that my family was very religious, mainly Catholic, Methodist, and Anglican.
That a few of my family were gifted musicians in some cases.
I never actually knew that someone had served in a war, but soon found that one of my Great-Great-Uncles had served in Gallipoli and prats of France during the first world war, and another man married into our family had served in parts of North Italy during the second world war.

Yeah, theres heaps more but I'm amping to learn it.

Second, was browsing YouTube.
Found a video on Will Smith.
This was like "wow" haha.

so here it is:

I like this soo much.

Well, let's see.. What's news?

RUGBY - Mean games in the Super 14 this week.
Hurricanes are back in contention after smoking the Reds in a come from behind victory. Our two best hopes are the Crusaders and Hurricanes for semi-finalists, both looking pretty strong. Crusaders only just lost to the Bulls, who I'd say aren't as strong as last season. If the Stormers and Bulls lose this week, then the Hurricanes secure a home semi! It's rather amazing to watch how much can change in like 2-3 rounds.


VLOGS AND YOUTUBE - Update.
 Yeah about that haha... I really haven't had time this year to make as many videos, I'm kinda snowed under with course stuff, not only that but my new computer doesn't work properly yet, hence no iMovie (budget I know).

MUSIC - Update.
Our group is slowly coming together. I'm lead singing -.- BUT Ryan "The Manz Singer" Karaka is backing me so hopefully it helps haha. We're kinda gonna start of with mainly punk, rock, and dub, mainly covers, BUT we should find our own vibe and start our own originals pretty quick.

Yeah, I've pretty much fallen off the rap game but I do hope that we can kinda integrate it into our music somehow =]

WEBSITE - Newz.
 Well, I'm really gonna try and launch this page now:

• I'm gonna get my own domain to drop the blogspot host.
• I'm adding in some new columns next Sunday (16/5)
•Will be uploading pics, vidz and loads more.
•May add another person to my blogging to "varietize" my posts.

Yeah well thats pretty much it from me for now so Ciao!

My thoughts today:

I wish I was a gifted artist, someone like REVOK or SMASH.
They inspire me to break the mould instead of slipping into a category. It feels like everyday where I sit and don't accomplish anything, I've wasted another day in this short lifetime we have. Such a shame. I don't think it has anything to do with motivation, it's more the idea of creating ideas to inspire other people and figuring out how to do that sorta shit. I really do think I should start writing rhymes and drawing when I have free time instead of directing my attention and focus towards the likes of FaceBook or YouTube. If I had a good editing program for video's I would start making some more films, but I can't. Cause my computer ain't compatible with iLife 08 =/. Awwww well. I really wanna start doing photography and all that sorta jazz as well. And now reading this to myself I'm thinking: "why the fuck am I doing sport and rec. for?". LOL. Well it's a good course and it's enjoyable.

It's funny, people automatically expect me to be able to make their day by saying something rand. I hate the fact that my videos make me who I am in a way. I'm more than just a person in the Tube, like... Ugh.. I dunno, I mean like I can be serious as well, it's kinda like a "the boy who cried wolf" sitch. You know, I'm the jokester, never taken seriously, always considered to be back-chatting and shit. There's more to me than that, and I really do want people to see that. I think thats why by studying and stuff I can prove myself to be a bit more mature. I'm a Scorpio so I'm kind-of allowed to be paranoid about this sorta stuff haha.

Sometimes I just drive. I'm one of these people who always takes the long way home. It costs heaps now days though, but I still think its worth it. I wonder who reads this, you know, who can understand my thoughts. sometimes even I don't understand what I'm doing. I need to find a person who understands me, maybe they can help me find out who I am. I'm still confused about who I am. but then again, who truly finds out who they really are?

Thanks.

Here's something.

Hey.
Stuff you.
Dearest person:

It's so amazing, I never thought I knew a social climber till I met you.
It amazes me how much people can change.

WAY BACK: 
Dude wouldn't even do drugs.
Hardly drank.
Proud to be whoever they were.
Stuck loyal to the bro's.
Backed us up to the fullest.
Hated smokers.
Hated the rotten corporations and generic fagz that represented them.
Had a sick flow in his music, very hateful, but rather right, and didn't care/wouldn't change for people who didn't count.
Despised haters.


NOW:
Does all kinds of drugs.
Drinks till he chucks, even when sick.
Dresses to please, disrespects "lesser" people, tries any chick.
Stole from the bro's, didn't pay back money, invites themselves over, turns up wasted and drunk.
Lost the loyalty he had to our crew, started taking ownership and became a powertripper.
Smokes.
Wears all the corporated clothes he can get his hands on, focuses on hair to impress.
Hangs off the nuts of his haters, trying to climb even higher into the social world.

So what can I say?
Damn bro, damn... I hate to see the brothers get lost on the path of life. Honestly, I cling on to them but eventually, I find I'm clutching at straw. I used to hold on, but now I know no-one can change anyone else unless the person wants to change themselves.

Yeah...

Negativity

Negativity. A thing we all come to clash with at some stage. Some more than others.

I really do hate negativity, especially when its from some hypocritical asshole who completely, how should i say it, shuts me down whenever I go to say something.

Now I really may sound rather obnoxious and cocky but fuck it, I have to face that people are intimidated by my intellect, intelligence, witty comebacks, accidental corrections,  and my state of mind that nobody is better than another person because we are all unique and different.

HOWEVER, some people seem to completely disregard and even mock my fucking input and try and categorize me as a fool. Blaming a whole teams loss on one man is so fucking unfair. You play AS A TEAM, you lose AS A TEAM. There's no two-ways about it.

Yes you may have listened to instructions, know the calls, know how to do your position specifically on-field, but everybody's input should be valued. If there is a simpler way of explaining stuff to other newer players then by all means that input should be held in high regard.


And I don't hate against people for no reason. Like you.

Piece of my mind!

Chur I got a new script book.
Found out about this capture the flag thing. Gonna take some poor bitches out :P
Sitting here with Jordz and Ryuku talking about churches and rugby and sport nd shit.
Squeezing a massive zit on my head.
I love Lydia!
This film script and all the ideas are coming together very well =D
Gonna be pretty awesome cuzzy pretty awesome.
Fust Jarted =]
Happy birthday Antz!

Conez.

Honestly,
I was gonna do it.
But then I saw how generic it got.
Me and the bro'z have a better idea anyway.
Haha it's funny still.

So yeah, haven't posted in like 7 months. Farrrrrrrr...
I'm at Northtec now people, Level 3 Cert. in Sport and Outdoor Rec.
Got dreams I wanna follow.
Don't do the rap bizz anymore, HOWEVER, I am still going hard on my directing/acting sorta shit.

COMING SOON:
Ummm, Looking at doing a YouTube series of 3, 5, or 7 episodes. I have a few ideas in mind for it and I am looking for local talent, either in front of the camera or behind the scenes. More details to follow, the theme is pretty out there, laugh all you like: Post-Apocalyptic Zombies.

Theres also another idea that we have but it could become semi-illegal, though I'm not sure. Gonna research that first before I jump straight to doing those sorts of things.

Music? Hell yeah! 
Shay, Ryan, and I are looking to form a jam-band.
If you're keen hit me up.

Sweeeeet!
Latez